Broken Heart

My heart,

My broken, shattered heart,

is damaged,

far beyond any repair could fix.

I’ve given my heart,

Not only to one,

But to many.

My friends,

My family.

To the ones I love.

The ones I love,

Whether they are

Male, female, black, white,

Near, far, family, friends,

I trust them.

I trust them with my heart,

my soul

and sometimes,

my life.

Some though don’t care.

They don’t care that I gave them my heart.

They don’t care that I spend

countless hours worrying,

afraid that I will never see them again.

They take the heart

that I have so painstakingly given to them,

throw it on the ground

and leave it there to rot.

I want to say that I forgot

all the people that have crushed my heart.

But saying this would be

a rather large lie.

Each of these people are still in my heart.

I have never quite let go.

Every day,

every hour,

every minute,

I am constantly reminded

of how simple words can hurt so much.

I don’t want your sympathy,

I don’t want a Hallmark card,

all I want

is to forget.

Teen Girls Daybook- week 16

Date... Wednesday June 9, 2010
Starting time... 5:08 pm
Mood... depressed, sad
Outside my window... its raining...i love rain
I'm thinking... about how sad i am
I'm reading... Catagory 7
I'm listening to... myself sob
I'm wearing... shorts and some type of shirt
Yesterday, I... was a very happy person
I'm excited for... friday, wwak's bday party
I'm sad because... nilloc broke up with me
I'm hungry for... comfort food, strawberries
The song stuck inside my head is... break your heart
I want... to not be depressed!!!
I love... my friends. they are awesome
I loathe... idiots
This week, my goal is... to get out of this funk!
Did I meet last week's goal?... i have no fricking clue and i dont care
Ending time... 5:10 pm

I sent...

Hey peeps. I sent this to Nilloc a few minuets ago and he said it was a great riddle, so i thought id show this to you. NOTE- THIS IS WRITTEN IN 2ND PERSON PERSPECTIVE

What I might give you,
it can not be bought.
It can not be sold.
You can't see it,
you can't touch it,
but you can feel it.
No one can describe it for you.
No amount of words can tell you
what it will feel like.
You might have the opportunity
to feel this sensation I am describing,
but yet again,
you night not.
Don't be alarmed tomorrow
if I pull you over for a second.
I hope that if I have
enough courage to complete this task,
this will be the best birthday ever.
But i seriously doubt myself.
I honestly think
that I do not have enough courage
to pull off this daring task.
You have no idea how much I
would love to, but
I'm afraid that what I might do
would possibly pull us apart.
So I guess that your present
will just be having me,
a hug, comforting words,
and a rather lengthy poem.
Yet no one can ever tell
what tomorrow's sun rays
will bring upon us.

I'll tell you tomorrow what this riddle is referring to.

Awesome night

Hey guys!!!
Well, i sure have a lot to tell you.
First thing first, I have a new boyfriend and he will now on be Nilloc. Dont ask y.
It was really fun. Last night i went to his house at around 6-ish and we sat and talked til 7 when his mom drove us to the dance. From 7-9:30 we paced the school and talked and laughed and complimented each other. Haha. Then when the dance was over, we held hands :) it was really sweet and all my friends were like "awww!" it was funny. I really like him. Hes so nice and sweet and such, i cant really describe it. Lol.
I guess that was a shorter post then i thought it was gonna b...so ill ttyl!

byeas!
erin

Hey...

Hi. Well, i think im single...im not really that sure haha. IN ANY EVENT...so i broke up with drummer boy yesterday. I just havent been feeling the same way lately, and i thought it would be best if we went our separate ways. I think were still friends, but who knows.

The reason i dont rly kno if im single or not is because the guy i like likes me back and he told me and i told him and idk if youd call us bf and gf, but eh wateve.

its cool, hes not short. the first person ive liked whos not short. i feel like ive accomplished something. lol. i really like this guy, and if all goes well either i will be asking him out or he will be asking me. lol. wish me luck!

ttyl
erin